Faith

I've been thinking about religion a lot lately....especially in light of everything going on with my family right now. How do people have/keep faith? What kind of god takes away a beautiful baby girl long before her time should be up?  She was robbed of her life with a loving family and her parents have been robbed of a lifetime of memories with their precious princess.  I think about her when I wake up in the morning, when I go to bed at night, and all the time inbetween.  I think about how many people she touched in her short time here.  I think about how much I miss her and if I miss her so much I can't imagine what her parents must be feeling.  How will they recover?  How will they keep going on?  How will they find a way to move forward with their lives?  I keep putting myself in their shoes and it is devestating.  Why am I so lucky to have 3 healthy kids and they have to go through this? 

There are so many unanswered questions.  But through it all some are able to keep their faith.  I don't understand.  How do people believe in something that they've never seen?  How do people believe in a god that can bring such bad things to such good people?  It makes no sense.  I hate it when people say things like everything happens for a reason or maybe it was for the best.  That is all so insensitive.  There is no good reason that an infant is taken from this world at only 5 1/2 weeks.  There is nothing "best" about the devestation that is left behind.

One thing is for sure.  The love and support that our family has been shown is amazing!  You never realize how many people love you until you are in a situtation like this.  I hope that my family is able to find comfort in each other and in all of the wonderful friends we have.  And for those that are able to find/have/keep faith I hope they are able to find comfort with their religion.

In memory of Sophia Jane Smallwood. 

You are greatly loved and sadly missed.